Flying away

Don't you wish we could fly away? Like a bird, spreading its wings and swooping through the air, so effortlessly carefree. Flying away from all your troubles, all your worries, all responsibilities and chores.
I guess King David felt the same way too. A great king who was considered wise and had a heart after God himself. Even him, felt like fleeing, when he said:

"Oh, that i had the wings of a dove!

I would fly away and be at rest-

I would flee far away and stay in the desert;

I would hurry to my place of shelter,

far from the tempest and storm."

Well, it's apt that he should write that, who wouldn't when your own son tries to kill you or when your friends turn against you, bringing a whole army to capture you. If i were him, i would want to run away and die.

Often, troubles and difficulties don't come alone, they come in series. Like 'sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga.' So people kill themselves, thinking that when they do, all their problems disappear.

I can't say that i've never thought about dying. But i would never end my own life, because it's wrong and because i'm a coward. Still, sometimes i wish God would just take me away. Take me far far away, like a bird, flying away from all earthly burdens. But He wouldn't. And you know what He told me?

He gave me the words of Paul, from Phillipians 1:21-24.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. 

Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.

And so, I wait. Living from day to day, by His grace and His power that is made perfect in my weaknesses. As Paul says, fighting the good fight of faith. :)