What could've been

To know that you could have done something
To change what happens next
To know that it could have been
Different or better yet.
To watch when everything falls apart
Unable to lift a hand
held back by forces unseen
Orders and tradition that can't be unbend.
To hear your own heart breaking
when breaking hearts don't make a sound
To cry in anguish, hurt and despair
when all your senses are numb.

To question the Lord repeatedly
Why me? Why this?
Even when you know that God surely has His plans
But there is still the seed of doubt
if only God could be clear and loud.

To put on a smile and say to friends
" Its ok, yeah i'm fine"
But they could never understand
They've never cross this line.
What hurts the most and
cuts deepest into your very core
Is the ones whom you love and trust
are the ones who made you fall.

What can i do? What can i say?
To change what has already been done
If only i don't know what could've been
If only i've never expected more
If only hopes weren't that high
Then perhaps it wouldn't be such a great fall

Who knows what could've been
If it hadn't been this at all
The Lord gives and the Lord takes
Praised be the name of the Lord.

"What could've been" by E.Y.