When 24 hours isn't enough

I wish there was more than 24 hours a day. Or it would be better if the world stops spinning round and everything comes to a standstill. Its so hard to focus when so many things keep popping out, demanding your attention.
Sometimes you rush through the whole day and without realising it, its night time already. It feels like you're the horse and time is the rider in life's race. You wanna stop cause you're so tired and you don't wanna go on but the rider urges you on. I miss those days when my phone doesn't ring at all for the whole day! Busy..busy..busy till you don't even have time to think.
It was a good break to go out with friends last wednesday. To appease Yee shien's sushi cravings..haha!

And i miss the great times we together, the four of us in G49. Ahh..those days when we were still neighbours and floor-mates! all the silly things we did and all the food we ate!

miss my ex-room mate!

and her elastic skin lacking collagen

Its finally over!

What a relief! Orientation ended officially on friday. The whole week had been a headache. As i look back, it had been a memorable 2-week-plus orientation, and it had taught me alot. (even though im not the one being orientated.) Sometimes when i feel tired of this whole thing, the freshies do encourage me indirectly. It suprises me that many of them look up to me, and in their minds i seem perfect; the sweet, kind, cute, loving and favourite senior. And just knowing that makes me strive to be one.
Little do they know that seeing them suffering actually motivates me.

And during the closing ceremony on thursday, we chose the royal cocky family, the blur-potato family, oscar award and 001-003 for girls n guys.

heads down- good practice for future dentists

cocky king receiving his prize

Last but not least, we all got fake buddies! But this year, the freshies were sooo innocent and blur, they were all fooled.

my fake buddy-sarikei! now my kai-buddy.

Finally on friday, it all came to an end where the real buddies are announced. Perhaps it was a happy moment for many, but it wasn't for me. I had mixed feelings, of sadness, anger, disappointment and lastly hope. But this isn't the end. It is a new beginning. I didn't thought i could smile, but suprisingly i did although i didn't feel like it.

my buddies~some missin in action

Surely, everything happens for a reason. Now that i've got a buddy, no matter who it may be, it is my responsibility to care for her. God knows what's best and all i need to do is to believe and trust in His perfect plan.

What could've been

To know that you could have done something
To change what happens next
To know that it could have been
Different or better yet.
To watch when everything falls apart
Unable to lift a hand
held back by forces unseen
Orders and tradition that can't be unbend.
To hear your own heart breaking
when breaking hearts don't make a sound
To cry in anguish, hurt and despair
when all your senses are numb.

To question the Lord repeatedly
Why me? Why this?
Even when you know that God surely has His plans
But there is still the seed of doubt
if only God could be clear and loud.

To put on a smile and say to friends
" Its ok, yeah i'm fine"
But they could never understand
They've never cross this line.
What hurts the most and
cuts deepest into your very core
Is the ones whom you love and trust
are the ones who made you fall.

What can i do? What can i say?
To change what has already been done
If only i don't know what could've been
If only i've never expected more
If only hopes weren't that high
Then perhaps it wouldn't be such a great fall

Who knows what could've been
If it hadn't been this at all
The Lord gives and the Lord takes
Praised be the name of the Lord.

"What could've been" by E.Y.

Your ways, O Lord, are higher and

Your knowledge is immense;

So give us strength to trust You when

Life doesn't make much sense.

-Sper

Orientation

Is SUPER tiring! Not only for the freshies but for seniors as well. Especially 2nd years...sigh.
1.Not enough sleep.
2.Not enough food.
3.Too much things to worry about.
4.Too little time to even think.
5.Too much sleeping in lecture hall.
The results : a. black rings around my eyes :(
                   b. i LOST WEIGHT!!! hahahahaha :)

And the buddy-thingy is giving me sleepless nights and headaches. WHY OH WHY does it have to be this way?!! If only things could be simpler...

Besides, it makes me feel bad, just seein them reminds me of how it was for my coursemates and me, just a year ago.Time passes by so quickly. Hearing the shouts of seniors make me relive those grim moments of a past july. Although in the end it was all worthwhile, i could never ever go through all that again. I wonder how we went through all that. Thank God i'm second year now.

Daisy petals

Up above the sky is blue

and the day is breezy and cool.

I thought i would be happy here

in a field of daisies up to my ears.

But questions kept running through my head

confusion and chaos and things that i dread.

 Daisy petals all around

I'm hiding so i can't be found.

Daisy petals i pull one by one

Hoping that the answer will come.

As the wind carry them away

to another place, to a better day.

Daisy petals all around
Will you, like others, let me down?
Daisy petals i pull one by one

Till the last petal and then i'm done;
 With each petal i say a prayer

of hope, of faith, of a love so dear.

"Daisy petals" by E.Y

Weekends!!!

Every weekday, starting from Monday, i do a countdown til Friday. And i'm almost always happy on a friday!:D

Fridays are the best, saturdays are great but all goes downhill on a Sunday, because Monday comes next. :(

It's been a fast week, every week seems to fly by when you're busy. This week had been a roller coaster ride for me and i'm glad the weekend is finally here.

A good rest is what you need after a terrible week of classes and labs. All optech and prosthetic labs with no play makes dental students go crazy. And this is proof :

My coursemates releasing their stress on a poor little mouse..how pathetic is the life of a dental student.

How does one manage to go through all the 5 years of classes, labs and clinics? It is encouraging to see all the seniors graduating this week, to see the smiles apon their faces, showing everyone that they did it and we can do it too. :)

isn't it beautiful?

When i was a little girl

Inspiration for this poem came to me today during my Pharmacology lecture. It's not that i wasn't paying attention though..i came back and wrote this in my room.

When i was a little girl,

the world was bright and fun;

With rainbows and kites, colour crayons and toys,

and sandcastles under the sun.

When i was a little girl,

everyone's a friend;

The man on the street, the neighbour's brown dog,

we'd play like there's no end.

When i was a little girl,

everything seemed so huge;

Adults were giants, invincible and strong,

unlike me, they're never confused.

When i was a little girl,

i imagined what would i be;

When i grow up just like my mom,

i thought i would be free.

But now that i'm a big girl,

the world is dull and dreary;

With work and chores, responsibilities and more,

it gets me down and weary.

Now that i'm a big girl,

trust doesn't come easy anymore;

Back-stabbing friends and hypocrites,

Await outside my door.

Now that i'm a big girl,

adults aren't that great at all;

They get sick, they cry, they're confused,

they falter and sometimes fall.

Now that i'm a big girl,

i miss being naive and carefree;

Gone are those happy days of a little girl,

Alas, adulthood ain't as fun as it should be.

"When i was a little girl" by E.Y.

Aaah...open wide!

2nd year dentistry is way tiring. Challenging and demanding. But fun and satisfying. My whole day is filled with labs! i miss 1st year, where all i have to do is attend lectures and tutorials. However the good thing is i'm learning alot and it feels more real being able to handle stuff and work like a dentist.

Tools of Torture!

My dummy, Max and me :D

Lab works are stressful and seems very much like orientation. But i'm praising God today because i passed my amalgam cavity preparations for both mandibular and maxillary!!! hooray! But its only the beginning and there's more to come, so i must remember that in good times or bad times, the Lord is always in control. :)

"Is anyone of you in trouble? He should pray.
Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise."
1 Peter 5:13

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:28