More of You

I need more courage;
to do things i've never done before.
I need more confidence;
to know that i can.
I need more time;
to adapt
to learn
to study (exams!!!)
I need more rest;
to recharge.
I need more faith;
to trust and believe.
I need more of you, Jesus.
to satisfy my every need.

Tides

Have you ever stood at the edge of an ocean and watch the tides roll in and out?
You plant your feet firmly on the sand and with every tide, it submerges deeper?
When you almost can't see your feet anymore, and you know a great big tidal wave is on its way?

Have you ever felt that nervous anticipation of joy and fear?

Unfailing One

It requires a great deal of courage to trust in humans. It makes you completely vulnerable. And how many people were let down because of trusting the wrong person. Be it a friend, lover or family member, trust doesn't come easily.

I think we build walls. Big strong walls with moats.
All around ourselves so that no one could get in. So that we can protect ourselves. So that we don't get hurt.

As time goes by, the walls become stronger. Brick by brick, added from day to day. And we can't live without the wall around us.

Maybe that's the right way to live. Mind your own business, each man to himself. This way, you won't get hurt in a dog eat dog world. No one can't ever hurt you because you can't be touched. You're invincible.

That's how i used to be. Maybe i'm still like that. Walls make me feel safe. With walls, nobody can ever come in.

But Jesus stands outside and knock. And i want to let Him in. Because i know His love is unfailing. Humans fail you, but God doesn't. He is unfailing. Thus, I chose to trust.

So i have started to take down those bricks. One at a time. It may be awfully slow. And i may never have the courage to take down the whole wall completely. I still choose who i intend keep the wall up for, because it's impossible to trust everyone.
Forgive me if i'm too closed-up. But i'm trying and i'm learning. I'm depending on the unfailing One.

To mend a broken heart

1st poem of the year is out! But please don't think it's negative and all. I happened to get inspired when my light cure base plate for partial denture broke in half. I tried gluing it back but to no avail. And come to think of it, when hearts break, how do you put the pieces back together again?

To Mend a Broken Heart

What do you do to mend,
to mend a broken heart?
How do you get it back
to the way it was at the start?
How do you put back the pieces                                         
of the shattered, broken parts?

Humpty Dumpty shouldn't have sat
on the castle wall,
If only he knew, if only he'd known,
There'll be a great big fall.
Now all the king's horses and all the king's men,
Couldn't put him back again.

What could i do to mend,
to mend a broken heart?
For stitches, glues and sutures don't work
All's futile, it's just so hard.
If only i knew, if only i'd known
I can't mend a broken heart.

"To mend a broken heart" by E.Y

Brand New Year

A week of the new year's gone now. I enjoyed so much, studied too little. Now the guilt creeps in. Exams in 3weeks time. My study week is sadly my chinese new year week. But i guess this week has made up for that. It has been great. :)

new year dinner wif coursemates

birthday celebration wif coursemates

Yee shien's birthday at secret recipe

buddy outing

 Lots of good food too! hahaha

 Woah. Didn't realise i actually ate so much during the past weeks. But all the fun's gonna stop, cause this week onwards i'm studying for 2.1 test! Hmm no, not stop, let me rephrase it; the fun's gonna pause. Just for now. Until exams are over. *winks*