Sometimes i wonder, what kind of God is it who asks so much of us, even our everything?
Would he ever understand how much it hurts to give up things that you hold dear, for a cause that is even uncertain and doubtful.
The answer came to me quite simply through a book.
The same God who gave up His everything for me, His own son. His perfect, unblemished, flawless son whom he holds dear.
He gives all.
He asks all.
I guess King David says it best, when he wanted to buy Araunah's threshing floor to build an altar, but Araunah gave it up freely. But the king replied to Araunah, “No, I insist on paying you for it. I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing.” 2 Samuel 24:18-25
And so, let it be. Take my life and let it be. For waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainties, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to Him. For when the will of God crosses the will of man, somebody has to die.
