Stress!

In dentistry apa-apa pun stress!

Lab also STRESS. Clinic also STRESS. 

And now exam lagilah STRESS!

Seriously i need to study but i don't know what am doing here. I wish my life's as interesting as a storybook. I see people going places and doing great things but i'm stuck here in a boring routine. And if it's not boring, it's stressful! Day in day out.

Don't you ever wonder if there's more to life than all this?
I was pondering that question, feeling as moody as ever when i came before the Lord. He spoke, and i wrote;

Praise the Lord, O my soul,

My heart rejoices in You;

You lift me up on higher grounds,

you carry me when i fall down.

How could i live a day on earth,

without your loving tenderness?

That empty aching hole You've filled,

with mercy and grace, each day anew.

Life's meaningless,

without reason,

Our days gone by without a cause,

We labor and toil like a horse,

all for nothing;

Fading away into emptiness,

like dry leaves in the fall.

But You made life worth living for,

a reason, a purpose unto them all.

Each days seems brighter when you're around;

You give me hope when there's none to be found.

Oh truly Lord what else could i say,

but to love You till the end of my days!

The Good Shepherd

This song really spoke to me, giving me a renewed perspective and a greater insight on God's sacrifice. I always thought it cost nothing for God to sacrifice his only son, for surely He is God and He can easily raise Jesus up again. But now, i see from a different view, of how God must've felt when He had to watch His own son suffer and die for our sins.

The story of Abraham became significant suddenly. God tested him by requiring Abraham to sacrifice his only son, and even though Abraham loved his son so much he loved God more. But as Abraham was about to kill his son, God stopped him and told him it was just a test. 

I've read and heard the story countless times, but i never really feel what Abraham must've felt. If God were to ask me to sacrifice all my dreams, my hopes and everything that i hold dear; would i do it? If he were to take everything away from me, would i still love Him?

Just as Abraham struggled emotionally as he sacrificed his son, I now know surely God would've felt the same way when He had to give up His only Son, Jesus, to die for me. Oh Lord, how it must've hurt to watch someone you love die in such a painful way? And you did that all for me, and You said even if i were the only sinner on earth, you would've done the same. I don't deserve that.

But thank you for being my good shepherd, thank you for dieing for me, and thank you for loving such an ungrateful stubborn sheep as me. 

 

"I am the good shepherd; and i know my sheep, and am known by my own. As the Father knows Me, even so i know the Father; and i lay down my life for the sheep." John 10: 14-15

GG service learning

I miss being a kid, truly and really! Last saturday, i volunteered to help out with songs and a play for the Generasi Gemilang Service Learning for underprivileged kids in Sri Pantai with some friends, and it was GREAT!

there was dancing

and singing..

 And the play was absolutely adorable, im so glad that my friends decided to help out! They were all terrific.

the story of tortoise and the hare with a twist!

cute rabbit chooi ting!

 The best part was when we broke into small groups and interacted with the kids! And Edward and i got 3 cool boys; Shazwan, Aniq and Hisham.

Hisham the quiet n creative one.

Aniq the youngest and cutest!

Shazwan, the talkative, Bruno Mars' fan!

 When we were doing the craftwork, the 11 year old Shazwan told me if he had a handphone, he would have lots of Bruno Mars' songs in it. I misheard that and i thought he has one, so i asked him to let me see it. But he said, "No i don't have one, but i wish i had." Aniq then added that he wished he had a game-thingy. (couldn't remember if it was playstation or something similar) That really tugged my heartstrings, and i told them they can buy it when they're working one day.

I look at myself and the people around me, and realized how lucky we are. To be spoon fed with computers, handphones and whatever we want from our parents. Some rich kids even have i phones at the age of 6. Yet, we always complain, we always want more. We are never satisfied. We should be thankful for the numerous blessings in our lives, and learn to give more, to be a blessing to someone in need. A Saturday morning spent sleeping or facebooking would be a waste, when you could give hope and brighten up someone's day. And that is so true because Shazwan asked me, "Will you guys be coming back?" When i said yes, he smiled and shouted "YES!"

Who knew such a simple comment from a little boy could speak volumes.

Nearing another end

Time flies, runs and waits for no man. I hate running, but i've got to catch up. When you think you're winning the race, time catches up with you again.

And the end of my second year in dental school is drawing near. Though there's alot to worry about, i have decided to surrender it all to you Lord.

I've learned so many things this year, i don't even know where to begin. I guess the main thing is a change of perspective and priorities. Knowing that there is only ONE thing that truly matters in life, despite the circumstances. And learning to rise above my fears, stepping out of my comfort zone; it was difficult and i'm not fully there yet, but it's a journey.

Yes, it's a long arduous journey with lots of rocky paths and bends. But i have someone who will walk with me and ahead of me. I have someone who holds my hand, someone who will pick me up if i should stumble and fall. And so, I will not be afraid, for that someone will never leave me nor forsake me. Thank you Lord. :)