Life starts when exams end..does it?

Woo-hoo! Finally the exams are OVER!!! :D
Its funny how i feel like sleeping all the time during exams, and how hyped up i get, i just cant lie still after exams! And i don't feel like reading notes and books anymore during exams but i just wanna read as much storybooks as i can after exams! lol.

But still the Lord has been so good to me, being there with me when i study and when im in the exam halls.
Sometimes it is during the lowest and most-stressed time of your life (eg: exams) that our God appears to be closer to us than ever.
And sometimes when people say, 'i wish i had your brains', i think its inappropriate because i don't deserve it.
I would just smile and shrug it off. But what i really wanted to say was it's not my brains that you want, it's the Lord whom you need. For without Him i could never amount to anything, for without Him i could never have the strength to carry on, and without His wisdom and guidance i could study all i want and it would just be a waste. That's what i really wished i'd say. But i just don't have the guts.

Well, semester 1 of year 2 has officially ended and i'm thankful that God has brought me through it. The year is also coming to an end, and a new semester and a new year is coming. Who knows what lies ahead waiting for me? Oh well, we'll handle that together, Jesus, won't we? As for now, i'm gonna sit back and relax for 3 weeks...a well-earned holiday i've worked hard for; literally.

Home-bound!

Thank You Jesus coz I'm going HOME!

Counting on Him

Thank you Lord for that undeserving grace. You don't often see miracles in life, but they do happen, once in a while. Thank God for that.

Earlier this week it seems impossible for me to complete my lab work before the exam study week. There is so much to be completed and looking at the list of mean nasty doctors for my group, i lose all hope. I am almost prepared to stay back during study week to complete my projects.

But our God is a God who hears our cries and prayer even in times of difficulties. Truly, David says it best.

" To you, O Lord i lift my soul; in You I trust, O my God. "
Psalms 25:1-2

" You are my Lord; apart frm you i have no good thing."
Psalms 16:2

"I have set the Lord always before me, because he is at my right hand i will not be shaken."
Psalms16:8

And,

"No, in all these things, we are more than conquerors through Christ who loved us."
Romans 8:37

Monday was amazing and i managed to catch up on my work. But today was miraculous because i went far ahead than what i expected and what i had plan. And in every single step of that project, a million and one things could have gone wrong. Believe me, i've seen many things going wrong in preparing a tooth cavity, making pin holes, placing pins in tooth and packing and carving amalgam (the grey metal filling thingy). Lots of people had to repeat. Lots of people cried today. And my case was a VERY lucky one. No, it wasn't just luck, it was God's grace.

Today is only Wednesday and many other things could go wrong tomorrow or Friday. I can't say that my problems are solved and i can't guarantee that i'm going home on study week. But God gave me a reason to hope; that is to count on Him. Whatever happens next, good or bad, all i have to do is trust that God always knows best. There's nothing to fear, cause I'm counting on a great and mighty God.

In Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

The way it used to be

Someone once said; change is the only constant in life. And i realize how true that is, because of you. It wasn't like this before. There we were, sitting face-to-face, the same place, the same hour of the day, the same people but something has changed. It was you. You changed.

You used to tell me everything. So did i. But now we only talk about superficial things, random and unimportant things that don't matter. And everything seems like a pretend, a masquerade, a mere facade. There is a chasm between us that can't be bridged, no matter what i do. You're so distant. We've drifted apart, and sometimes we clearly know the reason why. Sometimes we don't.

But that can't be helped. You've moved on. You grew up and matured. So you say. But i was left behind, holding on to the past, grappling with fading memories. But i don't think it is supposed to be like that. I believe that you can never totally ignore the past, because the past is part of you and the past shaped who you are today. You can move forward, but please don't act as if i never existed. Because i miss the way it used to be.

Everything changes. The seasons change as the year goes by. Kids grow up and leave. Old men die. The paint peels from the old house and the iron gate rusts. And people drift apart. Change is inevitable. All that's left of us are memories, of the way it used to be.